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I would wait for you for a lifetime, before, but now that I have you with me, I can't think of waiting any longer. It's so hard spend all the day knowing that I'll sleep without see you or touch you. Knowing that I've in front of me one more day of uncertainty, not knowing if you'll show up at the night with your lovely smile and your nice songs. I'm feeling so needy and I've never been like this before, I've never needed anyone like this and surely, never been afraid of scare someone being so... sticky? It's... is just too hard be far when I want so badly be near, to hug you and to kiss you and all this sorts of stuff that let my day brighter. It's not like I would turn myself miserable when I can't see you, but all those things that use to shiny brightly on your presence starts to lose some colors and... I don't know... seems more boring and unhappy. Even when I'm not unhappy... at all... even when I'm just a little bit more needy of you. I think that the reason is... I love you. I love you so much that I can't stand without you because when this possibility actually happen, I miss you, and start to put on my head bad ideias, being pessimistic like just I can be. I hope that you don't read this, but if you do... Don't be afraid or scared... I'm sleepy and missing you, and this is it... I'm just keeping writing to wait awake untill you're at the job. I do not want to let you alone at this hour, because it's late and because I can't be there with you now. I love you, honey. And this is forever.

Sad song's ballad

Do you know when the heart really hurts? 
It has happened with me, and it keeps happening all the time,
every day. 
Can I hold you really close?

See all those things, think on all those words that I can't say, 
I'm feeling that I'm living on a house that isn't a home anymore, 
I builded my home with sand and now.... 
well, look around and you'll see the rain that pour, 
dropping from these eyes. 

But you can't feel the pain. I'll protect you from it.
I'll protect you from every drop or make you dance below the rain.
Because I need your laugh when I can't smile.
I need your hug when I can't feel anything else.

Don't let me go.
Keep holding my hand and let me be around you.
I cant live whithout you anymore...
And I cant to be the one who you love. 
Not even the right person for anyone.

I'm hard and sick and I let down the people i love. I will let you down.
I'm just wrong... but I'm still fighting. 
If you can be able to be happy someday.
If I can participate on this in your life.
I'm satisfied being just your friend.
And live without your love.


And then you realize that you cant be good enough 
Then just asks for yourself... 
Can i hold him really close?
Nope.

Era uma vez um mural

Nada constava nele além de fotos de personagens de animes e filmes antigos. Não precisava de mais nada para me lembrar da minha solidão e então me desfiz dele e me refiz. Troquei de roupa, de sorriso e fui à rua. Fui pisada, chutada mas também ajudada, saudada... recebi sorrisos e recentemente descobri que eu ainda era capaz de fazer amigos.